Sorrow

A niece who is a few months younger than I am died last night. I feel old, full of sorrow and am worried about my great nieces and nephews. They have lost a mother, and grandmother, and g-great-grandmother. Yea she had a family where I didn’t. Actually it was found out I couldn’t have children.

My niece and I more or less grew up together, went to the same junior high and high school. She would have been a year behind me if I hadn’t done grade 4 a second time because the first time I was in 5 schools in one year. So I was either behind, ahead or so far back or forward I had no idea what was going on.

She was one of 2 nieces the same age and a nephew thrown in as well, We were all in the same age group. She and I were the only ones growing up in Nelson though. The other niece was in Aldergrove, my nephew was in Vernon. This may sound strange but my mother married my father after his first wife died and left him with 6 children, one of who died when he was only 7 years old. Then my oldest sister came along then 10 years later I came, after a brother between us died in infancy. So that means my older step-sisters married while I was still young so I became an aunt before I was 10 years old. That is why I have nieces and nephews the same age as me and a niece and 2 nephews older than me.

Why am I rambling on like this? I don’t know but I felt I wanted to write, about how I feel then I had to explain why. Oh Shut Up Gladys.

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